What lays trapped within me?
MY SENSE OF ADVENTURE!!
I WANT TO TRAVEL, GO TO OLD PLACES, GO BACK TO INDIA, BUT ALSO TO TRAVEL EUROPE. WE HAVE THAT BLOODY CAMPER, WE HAVE TO GET IT FIXED AND UP TO SCRATCH. RIGHT NOW, I WOULD RATHER BE IN THAT UNRELIABLE VEHICLE HAVING FUN WITH S, THAN BE STUCK HERE AT THE QUINTA LIVING A LIFE THAT I MAY WANT ALL RIGHT BUT WHICH I AM PATENTLY NOT SUITED TO.
INSTEAD OF BEING HERE, SAT IN FRONT OF THE COMPUTER, FANTASISING ABOUT OTHER PEOPLES ADVENTURES, I SHOULD BE LIVING MY OWN ADVENTURE TO THE FULL. I THINK I SHOULD HAVE GONE WITH S. AND FEEL GUILTY ABOUT IT. I VALUE THE "BAD" EXPERIENCES I HAVE HAD WITH HIM EQUALLY TO THE GOOD ONES. THEY HAVE ALL HAD A GREAT VALUE AS LEARNING EXPERIENCES - THE HARD WAY (LIKE THE TOWER PERHAPS). OH, THIS FEELS MORE LIKE BEING ADMONISHED BY THE SWORD QUEEN THAN THE SWORD KNIGHT. HER SHARP TOUNGUE TRYING TO MAKE ME FEEL GUILTY FOR RUNNING FROM THE QUEST I.E. LIFE, INCLUDING ALL THE MESSY ADVENTURES THAT MAKE IT UP. LIKE SWORD FIVE - WHEN WE RUN FROM OUR QUEST, OUR PERSONAL ADVENTURE STORY, THEN WE RISK GETTING BURNED AND LOOSING EVERYTHING WE SOUGHT MOST TO HANG ON TO.
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